In light of recent family conversations regarding my career, it looks like I will have to fight for the plans I mentioned in my previous entry. Academic pursuits running over my real passions has been the recurring theme of my life so far and frankly I’ve had enough.

My greatest frustration is not actually art but music, the piano to be specific. It was my first love and I could’ve been good at it. I started playing on my own by age 4 or 5 and I could play songs by ear. I kept asking for lessons and was always given promises that lead to a big bunch of NOTHING. In my family only academic pursuits were considered worthwhile. This is why I have the skill of being able to spin any extra-curricular activity into sounding, well, curricular but I digress. By the time they wanted me to take lessons, I was in HIGH SCHOOL. I gave up after a few weeks cause by then I had nothing but resentment for it (transference, I know) and the feeling that it was too late. It’s been years since I touched a piano and I don’t think I could even muster a nursery rhyme anymore.

Now they want me to pursue art after I finish my residency and fellowship trainings(!). I’d be in my early thirties by then! I don’t want to end up resenting my art as well. So I’m gonna start saving up, just in case I don’t get their support (as usual).

How does this pro-blogging thing work again? ;)